Making of A Woman Series,  by Dr. Sandra Scott Wright “God Wouldn’t Let This Happen To Me?”

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Dr. Sandra Wright, Ph.D

I had been a Christian since I was 7, worked in the church some 40 years, conducted women meetings nationally and abroad, married the man God had instructed me to, we worked in ministry together and then…

I heard a message on the phone one day, “ I enjoyed hugging you and kissing you, I hope we can do it again.” I saw a matchbook cover in my house that said ‘Motel 6”. A few days later I came home from a women conference and saw a note written on red paper stating, “For a year I have not been happy. God bless your ministry. I am leaving.”

Had I misunderstood God? Had God lied? Didn’t he instruct me to marry this man? Hadn’t I cooked, cleaned, been a Proverbs 31 wife? Why God!

“Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations: That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perishes, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:” 1Peter 1:6,7

My heart sank, heaviness enshrouded me…then the Spirit of God shook me and I heard an inner voice say, “Give me a sacrifice of praise right now, praise me!” Having been a ‘seasoned Christian’ I knew the tugging of the Holy Spirit, I knew this was God saying praise me even though you are hurting, even though you may even question my motives…praise me!

I walked through the house each room, even the one he had taken the furniture away from…and I began to praise God for Who He Is, My Savior, My deliverer, My Healer, My Provider, My God, The El Shaddai, God My Righteousness. At first I felt nothing but pain…then it happened I entered the Holy of Holies, I entered my true prayer chamber, I had entered the true realm of the Spirit, where there is peace, joy and happiness in the Holy Spirit. I praised God with tears screaming down, I praised God not knowing where my next meal was coming from, I praised God not even knowing if I would have a home to stay in…

I said, “God I am hurting too bad to understand right now, but I know you are a just God. I know your plans for me are to do me good and not evil. I know you have even counted the hairs on my head. I know you have engraved my name in the very palms of your hand. I don’t understand but I trust your love for me…

I always could write, however during this time poems began to pour out of my heart. Looking back on them now, I see where the Holy Spirit was allowing me to write so I can see the progression and cleansing of my heart. I had bitterness within, though at the time I couldn’t even feel it. Some of those poems I will post in the near future so you can see the progression of my healing.

Next Stop: Bitterness Attacked My Heart!

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